Rythm Attuned to Reality

I walked;                                                         

It rained.

I slept;

The air was still.

I ate while the children sat and played.

It was strange;

All too quickly I was human again.

Memories came drifting past;

From where, now? They were discarded long ago.

A one-year old learning to crawl;

Her mother’s bright auburn hair.

A birthday at Mcdonald’s that became an absurdity;

The little ones too small to enjoy ice-cream cake.

This is where the path got twisted;

Away from wholeness; away from Truth.

This is where auburn hair became desirable;

This is where I longed to be someone else.

I am weak from fasting;

It feels good.

I have learned the meaning of Dependence on God.

He is my strength now, my shield, my deliverer.

He shows me the only usefulness for Time:

To understand the nature of Reality.

Today I learned about Man’s 4 Major Parts:

Physical, Essential, Mental and Spiritual.

Feed the body, feed the mind.

Inspire the spirt and you will know your essence.

I learned it all before; so why didn’t the lessons sink in?

Because I was distracted.

“Fasting will give you the right focus” a counselor advised.

Fasting leads me through mild, mystical trances.

‘We have noticed” a friend told me once.

Everyone becomes very quiet. Are they expecting something, some supernatural manifestation?

This is the only time I can give Peace to others.

Even so, there was hail with the rain today.

Dark clouds, depression, frustration and anger.

The husband leaves; the wife wonders why.

The children are wild, like animals let loose from a cage.

I lived through all this once; now I’m letting it go.

“Choose positive thoughts” a book reminded me.

Of course! It’s so simple.

I look back over this day with gratitude.

I look back over this year with reverence and awe.

Is there anything still blocking my true desires?

No. The Path is leading me steadily Home.

 

 

 

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